It has been eight days in 2020, still in new year vibe, hm? Talking about new year, it cannot be separated from its sidekick: new year's resolution. I am not a goal-setter kind of person, and the only time I made a new year's resolution was in 2016.
Four years ago, I promised myself to not have any regret. I wanted to try things I had never tried before. I wanted to challenge myself more. So, I registered myself for a open water diving certification. I was a marine science student, I had scientific diving as a mandatory course, but I was not automatically certified after finishing it. Meanwhile, a lot of my friends immediately took the certification after the course in 2014. My major had various fields to focus on, and diving was not my specialty or choice (and I was also afraid huhu), so at that time I did not join the certification program. I thought it would not be necessary for me. But then 2016 came, and I had to realize my own new year's resolution. So yeah, now I am a certified open water diver, finally after conquering my fear, and I made it, and I did not regret it.
That was just one example. Every time I was faced with my own fear, I reminded myself "Hey, remember your resolution!", and I got this little push. I got a little bit braver then.
However, I did not make any new year's resolution anymore; not for 2017, 2018, 2019, nor 2020. Nothing serious though, I was just lazy heheh. But some time around 2018, I came across this episode of a Korean variety show called Knowing Brothers, where Kim Yoo Jung made an appearance as a guest. She said, "I believe that there is something to regret behind every choice." (translated from Korean)
I immediately thought of my 2016 self, when I wanted to have no regret. Well, Yoo Jung was right, I agreed with her. Making a choice means there is one or more options that I have to leave behind and there are always consequences, however small they are. Now I have come to think that there is no such thing as "no regret"; there will always be. It is a matter of which regret I'd rather cope with.
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